Back to Work.. Back to Normal?

Back to Work

September 3rd. It’s the day I go back to work. Right now I have mixed emotions, sometimes I get really excited and other times a little nervous. I’m excited because I love my job, it feels impactful and makes me proud.

Working for the MS Society

Working with the MS Society has been really rewarding to me. I get to talk with people who have been recently diagnosed and try to communicate that a diagnosis is not the end- merely a label for what is happening inside your body. I get to communicate that there are tools and resources available. I try and be transparent about how some days are difficult but difficult isn’t impossible. I get to run a program that allows me to match people who have recently been diagnosed with volunteers who are living with MS.

My job allows me to feel like I can provide assistance to people who may be experiencing the same confusion as I had when I was diagnosed in 2007. Having the opportunity to make their transition, in this scary time, a little easier makes me proud.

Nervous Jess

But I’m also nervous. Sometimes I have a little ‘chemo fog’ and fatigue. Other times I have really bad headaches or just can’t sleep. I’m worried my body and mind aren’t ready to stop having their only purpose be recovery.

But even though I’m nervous, I also recognize how lucky I am. If there is any company in the world that can understand the impacts of HSCT it’s the MS Society. So we’ve developed a strategy. I’m lucky that I can work from home to avoid germs and have access to quiet spaces and  I am also planning on starting back a little slowly. The plan is, to begin with, half days and work up to full time. Right now I think that the timeline for this will depend on my body, my recovery, and how I feel.

I get to go back to work next week. I get to stop being so bored. I get to take baby steps back to feeling normal. Wish me luck, this is a big step for me.

One thought on “Back to Work.. Back to Normal?

  1. Eilene Cameron Reply

    This is amazing! I’ve utilized the MS society throughout my illness. I’m happy there are people like you working for them!

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